stupid ebook

Well, I’m at dela’s rite now, having this traditional sleepover, since we never have it like since ten decades ago. They have to study because they’ll have a sort of remed tomorrow, while I’m not (thank God).

And now, I’m authentically in a good mood, very curious, but still, have this stupid whole in my heart. I just can’t ditch it awaaayy. I don’t know what to do and I even do not know why. Uggh.

But but but, as I said, I’m in a good shape rite now, I don’t wanna ruin it.

Okaaay. I think it’s time for a little confession now. Huumm. You know what, I think it’s a bad idea having the copy of breaking dawn ebook. I’ll NEVER EVERRR could hold that out. I’m definitely gonna read that foolish ebook, just as I was fooling around in my tiny little room. Bisa-bisanya aku berpikir kalo aku bakalan tahan tidak membaca bahkan mengintip isi ebook bodoh itu. Haha. Like I don’t know myself.

But it doesn’t matter now. I just can’t put that away. Aku nggak bakalan tahan digantungin sama Edward, there’s NO WAY I can stop reading that shit now. Another reason why I can’t put that thing away is becos it started HAPPILY, VEEERRYY HAPPILY, more than I thought, impossible for me to resist and now it’s like my heart’s bulging with complacence. Huwaaaaaaaaaaaaahh.

Okaay. My laptop is running its battery down. Edward, Bella, Bella’s baby/Jacob’s imprint, tunggu akuuuuuu!!!

january 17th 20009- burned butt

Ouuuhh…

My butt is burning..

I’ve been sitting for like two hours, and it burns my butt..

But it’s okay, I don’t mind. Becoz I’m sitting in front of an online computer,hahaa.

I wrote that my mood was pretty good yesterday, but it’s getting worst as the time goes by..

Well, I think I know why..

Did you ever feel want something sooooooo muucccchhh but you know, exactly, that you wont EVER have it?

I’m feeling it now..

Yeaahhh.. I’m tormented by that feeling, lately..

And it hurt me soooo bad..

Ouch.

Baideweii..

Kemaren aku, dita, dela, inka, dede, sista, razak maen ke coban rondo. It’s a waterfall. I’s beautiful. It’s very verrryy cold, even for me, the penguin. And it hurt me.

I never imagine how big the impact for me. But yes, it’s big, huge, whatever. Yeah.

Aaaaaaaaaaarrrghhh…..

Why it’s happening to me??

Could You just pick someone else??pleaaaaseeeee???

Oke oke…

Enough complaining.. gosh, my butt’s still burning. Ups. Does that mean I’m complaining again? well, sorry..

Haduuuhh.. Ga sabar nunggu tanggal 31 dah. Breaking Dawn. Hope it will fix my heart. I really hope. Oke, aku ngaku deh, I really really reaaaaally hope it will fix my heart.

I feel so pathetic. And hopeless. Aaawwwww…

january, 16th 2009

Syalalalalalaaaaaaaaaaa….

The bloody hell UAS is oveeerrr… I watched twilight, again, yesterday and had a stupid nosebleed, ahahaaaa…

Yeahh..

Can see that I’m in a pretty good mood today. Syududududuumm.

Hmmm.. Hari ini mau maen-maen ke WBL sama anak-anak. Got to go.

january, 7th 2009

bibibibiiipp..

Finally.. Nulis blog lagi.. Berhubung kosan still modemless, nulis di wordpad dulu de, abis itu diupload ke blogspot..

Heeeemm.. There's sooooo many things i wanted to write but bcos the modemless thing, so i just didn't have right mood to write. Contohnya tuh ya, about rain in surabaya. I think having rain in surabaya is like having snow in sahara, hahaah, so anggun.. But seriously, bisa turun ujan disurabaya tu termasuk salah satu anugerah. That was what i felt when i had my first rain in surabaya 2008. Heeeeemm.. Rain is yummy..

beyond hejo's window

outside my lovely prison

on my way to gm

But hey, it's like 2009 now.. And actually i'm having my final terms exams here,uurrgghh... Tapi tapi tapi tapiii.. i have other thing to tell.. ihihihiiii.. On the last first january, i watched movie, twilight. And all i can tell is OH-MY-GOD Edward Cullen is so damn deadly gorgeous, sexy, hot, dangerous, and temptiiiing... Ya ampun ya ampuun ya ampuuuun.....

And the side effect of watching him for the WHOLE 2 HOURS had impacted me, directly. I dont know, maybe i have a disorder or something bcos i really really cannot get him out of my head, at all.. I even sometimes felt like i miss him.. I mean, he's just a fiction character, he's not even real for God's sake..

Sebenernya, honestly, bukan cuma Edward Cullen yang bikin aku begitu (emang sih, Edward Cullen yang paling parah), banyak tokoh fiksi laen, harap digarisbawahi, "tokoh fiksi" laen yang makes me fly away.. Just like Inuyasha, Michael Moscovits, Tappei Eguchi, Tao Ming Se (hehe, jadi malu nii), Mo Fan, bla bla bla.. Tapi ya ampuuunn.. Semuanya tokoh fiksi!

Huuumm..

Tapii..

For me, they're just real.. Maksudnya bukan bener-bener hidup didunia nyata, tapi hidup di dunia mereka sendiri, somewhere, tapi mereka tetep ada.. I know, it sounds... weird? crazy? Whatever..

I love those fiction characters more than the real characters.. Aku suka Torres, dia ganteng-lucu-slurpslurp banget, tapi aku lebih cinta Inuyasha daripada Torres.. Aku mimisan kalo ngeliat Robbert Pattinson, but it’s Edward Cullen whom i’m in love with. Cuma ada satu orang-nyata yang bisa menyamai kecintaanku sama Edward Cullen, cant tell his name, but let's just call him you-know-who (tapi jangan ngebayangin Lord Voldemort!). With his wide back, happy-mischievous-childish eyes, he's oh soooo... unspeakable..

Walaupun lo-tau-siapa orang yang hidup nyata, bener-bener ada, but for me he's like living in the fairytale land, neighbouring with Edward.. Ironic it is.. He's the only man, so far, yang sanggup membuat aku ga bisa ngeliat matanya kalo lagi ngomong, langsung dagdigdug parah, sesek napas, hiperemia, trus pingsan.. Hahah, ga sampe pingsan si, tapi hampir..

Oke oke, i wrote too much i think, earth is calling, got to back to the cruel reality.. Masih mesti belajar buat uas nii...Huhuhuuuwaaaaaaaaaahh..

Oia, langsung beli twilight+new moon begitu keluar dari 21 abis nonton twilight.. Terus tadi nyusul beli yang eclipse.. Hehee..

huwaaaaaahh..
i had a nice nice nice long weekend...bcoz you know why?i'm home...hohhooo..yeahhh..dont i smell like homey right now?hahaah..

well.its not as smooth as i said,but it's still a nice long weekend..my dad had a heavy cold which made him dizzy all the time..but hey, he's getting old now,you know,my dad..i think it's natural..

i went to the beach yesterday.. bcoz i have to go back to surabaya tomorrow morning and i cant spend the new year eve with the whole family, so my mom decided to have another new year while i'm still in jember.. yuupp.. you're rite.. tahun baru hijriah instead tahun baru masehi.. but it's still new year anyway.. hehee..

on the way to the beach, i saw a big white hill.. and my dad said it was gunung kapur.. huumm...


we had fun.. really..

my dad brought kite...

alrite..

it feels like i havent been writing for years..

i had a very miserable life recently, you know..

LCD hape rusak..

flashdisk rusak..

and i dont even know where my money go.. it's like they just vanished..

whatever..

and i'm dreadfully missing taking pictures.. then showw it off on my stupid blog.. but since my cellphone "heng-hong", all i can do is capture everything into my head..

i feeel soo weak, pathetic, and useless....

and guess what..tadi ada my little puppy pet di gubeng..hahahaaa...

all i felt was SHOCK..

I even couldnt breath..ga si,berlebay..yang ada malah ngos-ngosan gara2 nepsong ngeliat muka gantengnyaaaa..

but but but..you know wat?i dont feel better.. i mean, i like him verrryyyyyy very very muccchhh more than any puppy on the planet.. tapi begitu beneran ngeliat i just felt empty..

i dont knoww.. i still like him veeerrrryyyy muuuuuuuccchhhh... but i think.. i am happy enough to see him happy with her lovely girl rite noww..

you may think im crazyy..hahahahahaaaa..I AM..

whatever.. maybe i just have many things else in my head now..

huuuumm..

finally i have time updating my blog..