Family Sweet Family

Home sweet home, yes? Hmmm. But I think family sweet family is the proper phrase.

Selama kuliah di Surabaya, apalagi kalo lagi musim-musimnya banyak tugas, ujian, dan paling parah kalo barengan dengan musim belom dikirimin uang, pasti akan dengan sangat ampuh membuatku kangen setengah mati sama rumah.

Persis seperti bulan Januari kemarin. Ujian 2 minggu tiada henti. Begadang setiap malam. Harus menghapal ratusan lembar diktat. Harus bertahan dalam prinsip dan pilihan. Ujian selesai bukan berarti penderitaan juga selesai. Masih ada 2 minggu full penuh rasa tidak tenang dan mimpi buruk, yaitu 2 minggu masa menunggu nilai ujian keluar. Kepala rasanya seperti digantung. Pengumuman via internet algojonya. Siap-siap aja kalo ngeliat nilai D/E bakalan kehilangan kepala.

And I don't dramatized that, really! It literally felt like that, exactly like that.

Dan begitu akhirnya bisa pulang, rasanya bahagiaaaaaaaaaaaa hahahahaa. Rumah, makanan, tv kabel siap menyambut. Libur libur libur! Rasanya kepingin nyanyi sepanjang jalan saking bahagianya!

Sehari dua hari dihabiskan makan-tidur-nonton tv-online. Mandi kadang-kadang. Dan begitu juga hari berikutnya. Berikutnya. Dan berikutnya lagi. If boredom could kill, I could've been dead.

Mom and dad are extremely busy all the time. Especially mom. She works so hard.

Dan balik lagi ke ungkapan di atas. Rumah jadi tidak terasa rumah tanpa mama. Buat apa pulang ke rumah kalau cuma buat ditinggal kerja terus-terusan? Home means nothing without her.

 But I can't even say a word. She works for the whole family. She works her ass off for me. Hah now what I can say? Ugh I just want... Well I don't know what I want.

Geez what am I thinking?? Why I waste my time feeling so miserable while I'm home, I'm perfectly healthy, I mean look at those Haiti's survivors! I'm so blessed to be here, to be me. I've been a bitch.

Yeah all in all, I am off course happy to be home. There's nowhere else better than home. But like I said, it doesn't matter where you're at because aywhere could be a home if your family is around.